hai... went to the IT show to get a LCD monitor.. bought one 19' one for 299... came back and see, got one bloody dent right in the middle... though it can only be seen from certain angle with a very dark background, still it bothers me abit.. hai.. whether should i juz forget abt it or go and change... damn lar.. sure it is a hassle lor... hai.. god.. spare me can!
ytd already stay in camp till 2plus AM! for fliming of the mock intrusion la.. kanna bite by Rommel.. which is the dog, for like i dunno how many time la.. and once still bite for nearly a min... agonising min la! damn... back is sore, shoulder joint is painful and one black freaking blue black on my forearm.. and it is swelling.. and the worse thing, tomolo muz do it again.... whu ever say my job is easy, come.. i let u be bitten n bitten n bitten.......
GOD, spare me!
ytd nite told her smthing i still dunno whether i'm the right person to tell her. aniwae, i'm alittle upset that till now, the way we tok to each another is still so bad. i think firstly we noe each other too well and we use to let each other guess wat is the meaning behind the sentence, so when we try to tok with no strings attached.. we can't really seem to do it..
hai.. hope things will be betta. i think she will noe how to differentiate pple now. smtimes u wun wan to fall before u learn.. cos it's going to painful. so if u can learn before u fall, i think u have become wise. it's pretty much very ugly words here.. but i hope that she noes that deep down, i do care for u though we are not together.. maybe juz the simplest of care for another person.
We watch the season pull up its own stakes,
And catch the last weekend of the last week, Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced.
Another sun soaked season fades away.
You have stolen my heart.
You have stolen my heart.
Invitation only grand farewells.
Crash the best one, of the best ones.
Clear liquor and cloudy eyed, too early to say goodnight.
You have stolen my heart.
You have stolen my heart.
And from the bar room floor we are a celebration.
One good stretch before our hibernation.
Our dreams assured and we all will sleep well, sleep well. Sleep well, sleep well, sleep well.
You have stolen,
You have stolen,
You have stolen my heart.
I watch you spin around in your highest heels.
You are the best one, of the best ones. We all look like we feel.
You have stolen my,
You have stolen my,
You have stolen my heart.
miss this kind of feeling~ where u have butterflies in the stomach for a certain person. maybe she's lurking somewhere.. i hope to find it again. really tired todae. work ytd and came back home for a few hours and going back later.. hai. sian. aniwae went to the zoo on sundae with weiliang, catherine and jace. pretty fun since the last time i went was dunno how many donkey years ago!
hope adel is doing well, hope everything goes well for her. hope the road for her ahead is full of happy things, just happy things. i can just hope for her. maybe for now, i should put a close to this chapter of my life.. whether there will be another part to it, let's juz depend on HIM up there to decide.
adios!
STOLEN by Dashboard Confessionals.
like this song alot after i heard it in camp on dawn yang's blog.. haha.. was viewing it with my friend. haha...
hope u all like the song.
*OUT*
(p.s nothing to do with my situation now eh. anywae i dreamt of her last nite. twice to be exact. tout she wanna hear it, but as usual now, she jus cleanly forgets abt it. sad.)
dunnoe where to pour all my feelings, so decided to turn to my good old blog. saw sm the pic of her and the guy in her friendster profile.. was really pissed at one moment.. told myself i had to cool it.. hai... lie down on my bed and tell myself to cool it and just forget abt it. hai.. but the picture juz keep flashing... couldn't help it but pick my hp up and msg her.. think she is sleeping le or wat... told myself i had to reduce my urge to call her or msg her... she dun need me animore..
i juz dun understand some stuff.. how can she just pick herself up so fast?
y am i the only one thinking and feeling all the negative things here...
is it break up le, means u dun care abt the other party at all...
i really dunno. i'm just like a cancer patient, dun see anyting abt her with that guy or hear anything gd from her, i'll all rite.. tout i'm recovering, but now i think i juz suffer a relapse tonite.
feeling miserable again.
*OUT*
some pple might noe, some might not.. but i'm officially single now. Things didn't work out btw us... that is wat she say. true reasons only me and her will know it bah. think i'm a cursed person.. pple surrounding me.. my guy friends all either gonna broke up with gf or break up slightly before or after me.. haha.. so guys with gfs, stay away from me if u wanna keep ur gfs or those who wan a new one... haha.. noe the gfs will kill me.. come and join me!
thanks for everyone who give their 5 cents and 10 cents piece of advice to me during this tough period.. really appreciate it and all of your advices are well taken in. thanks for all ur care and concerns as well.
i still feel sad for this fail relationship. whether is becos i still have feelings for her or juz feelings for the relationship.. i'm not really sure. i'm sad to see this little "kid" of nearly 3 yrs old ends, the way it ended... guys and gals, do take care!
juz realised last week that my blog still got pple read sia.. avid reader somemore.. thanks ar! haha.. k lar, for some updates now. On work side, my unit finally had it's opening ceremony on last sat... think it's the end of shit work everydae of cleaning this and that.. back to those daes where we will take dogs out to do obediance and attack work bah.. but in that training field of ours? haha.. pray we wun be burn to death by the HOT HOT sun! hahaha..
had a few problems with adel these past month or so.. hai. think i really did really take her for granted sometimes.. or i should admit, most of the time. i'm sorry, dear. think when relationship come to a certain stage, u should handle it differently.. think i'm also learning it now bah..
friends... hmm.. juz celebrate my best pal, vincent's bdae on saturdae.. haha.. though i think it is really well tone down comparing to those celebrations we had when we are 18 or 19... getting old i guess.. hmm.. also keep saying abt ORD... haha.. they ording in a few months time.. for me, as of may 8th, i still have 13 mths to go.. think of it, not too long neither it is short.. juz try to enjoy it bah. haha.. looking on the bright side now. hahah... think need to give my blog a fresh life soon. when i have the time bah...
