didn't have ani chance to blog recently.. cos was really busy man.. these daes, it is always ops duties, kennelmaster, guard duties.. all kinds of shit.. hai. may make time looks like it is really going at a fast pace.. but it's really tiring mentally and physically.. juz finished sembawang ops duties ytd.. not really tired. aniwae reach camp, alex AKA ang you long, come tell me say he go and see the guy's profile on friendster and say he see some photos that he noes will make go KA-BOOM! haha.. at first i didn't noe what is he toking abt. then i noe he is toking abt js's friendster profile. then i just went to see.. yeah, intimate photos... was suddenly trying to feel my pulse while rest of my friends were cursing away at the com.. wasn't that bad as the first time i see it on her profile. was feeling weird, disappointed and angry. but it was kinda left over feeling..came home and did some rewind on the last few months with her.. i really didn't treasure her as i think i should. yeah, someone can love her more then i do. it's time.. to really move out of the shadow. i'm glad i never do anything really stupid since we broke up. both of us changed since we first met, i muz say i was disappointed, really disappointed with her then. was upset with myself. tout i always had control of my own situations.. but i just noe u can't do it.
again for u adel, dun ask me y i like that.. it's hard being me smtimes. trying not to make things worse for me and trying to get the answers or points i wanna get thru.. i will be here as a friend whenever u need me. that i promise u which is wat u wan when we broke up rite? seriousy, i nv hate u ever since that nite u told me. take care of ureself and mighty too. be nice to him.
nicholas.
i noe why i always felt lost all these while... smthings i tout it wasn't there.. smthings i tout i had control of.. but i think i juz lost control of my ownself.. my feelings.. my thoughts. smtimes i really dunno wat i wan.. i'm LOST.
my friend told me last nite during guard duties that he cried when he start to del all the pics of his ex-gf or them together... i was thinking i didn't even had the courage to delete mine.. he cried when he start to del. i think i dun even have to courage to cry...
juz by looking at our old photos.. i was just over-whelmed by emotions. hai.. smtimes see her online, wonder wat she is doing at that moment. know she could be at that guy's hse, i just stop thinking there.. i keep telling others that whenever i thought till this stage, i just fucked it. but i just dun dare to think further more.
feelings for u adel, i dunno. i juz noe i still miss ya.. i'm getting my life right which i noe that is wat u wan me to do. i will move on.. i have to, because it is for u. really feel like crying.. sounds like pussy rite.. hai.
i just can't write no more.
nicholas.
thurs and fri looks like joint together la... went to meet roger right after dismount at clementi for lunch and went to buy games and movie after that.. damn.. came home like 1 plus to install back war3 into my com.. right up to 3 plus lor.. no rest at all.. finally juz slept for an hr before meeting val for dinner. haha.. dinner was good and we went marina sq to walk for awhile.. i think she's very nice to tok to.. haha. aniwae, sent her back to boon lay and end up chong and vin came.. haha.. chong is val's pri sch friend la.. and they juz started toking abt old sch daes... me and vin jus sit there like blur cocks and listen la.. haha... boon lay is infested with bapoks la and the bapoks is like mutated wan la.. at least changi wan got standard.. boon lay totally, i do mean totally cannot make it.. hahhahahha.. then went off to pick chow at selegie.. haha.. he was at KTV with his colleagues there.. haha.. chow has a fun nite tonite, rite chow? hahha.. aniwae.. finish off with supper at azhar.. haha.. damn shag now lar... plus the flu pass to me by chong.. damn fucking disgusting ass la he... play with food back there.. aniwae, long dae but not too bad. haha.. enjoyable dae...
todae keep listening to S.H.E - wu yue tian... haha.. looking back on my wu yue de tian., wasn't that rosy at all.. but i've moved on now. but it just tickles me here n then... in a sense that always brings me that kind of feeling.
aniwae tomolo is a off dae to me.. damn long never get off alreadY! got it plan out! so.. not going to divulge anything yet
hahaha.
i like this song.. this is the acoustic version of it. i guess i first heard this song way back in secondary school.
i heard it again that nite in vincent's car. think this song juz bring out wat i wanna say now man! i think god can explain for me everything! cheesus cries! haha...
ops ytd... not really shag. but still slept like pig once i reach home. thanks for janice ringing me at 3 am in the morning juz to tell me that she is disturbing pple.. haha.. had alot of fun at phuture rite? miss, i at jurong island trying to sleep k! haha.
aniwae i wonder wat's up tonite!
damn.. bloody sick. body is breaking up and my nose is running and throat is stuck and the most fucked up thing.. bloody OPS tomolo... damn man.
god, spare me man!
and i'm freaking broke. i tout i have some money left in my posb but end up i can't buy wat i wan to buy juz now.. damn.. wat's wrong with my life ar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hmmm... think i really need the doc man.. my shoulder is swelling.. hai.. got the kind of puling pain and making my right arm weaker.. it is my power arm leh.. means smthing is really wrong.. hai.. tomolo is the final dae.. give it one last shot and i think it is off to the docs.
aniwae meet up bird for pirates at west mall ytd.. kinda disappointing having seen the first 2 series of the show.. hmm... kinda weird for me to see with bird.. just me and him.. haha! GAYS
then tomolo meet up with bird and vin for some light treats at nus.. kinda stupid rite.. but where to go? cos vin is booking in tonite later mah. hmm.. but one thing is stunning.. VINCENT jio me go cheong on SAT.. vincent sia.. he ask me sia.. confirm buy 4D! those pple whu noe vincent will be really stunned i tell u that... hahaha..
CHEESUS CRIES!
let's start with last fridae. it was the vetting of the mock intrusion by G3. for those gals whu dun understand, it was like letting ur boss see wat are u doing lor.. aniwae, means getting bitten again.. damn.. now my shoulder really like injure.. the blue black like it is ever spreading.. haha..
then went out with vin, chong and bird... saw deren and his gf at a coffeeshop at bt batok.. then suddenly he wanted to come along.. haha.. not scare gf give one time very good one ar, deren! haha.. went to tuas south, timah to eat then geylang to do cooling down.. haha.. dun think anihow.. juz go there and relax! hahahahahhahahahaha....
then on to sat. nothing much for the afternoon.. juz slack at home.. felt pretty priviliged that someone pushed away dinner appointments and something else.. i can't remember just to meet me... hahha...... aniwae, the person is eliz.
end up, i met her and her friends like 10 plus at cck and went to kbox instead... very long never sing le sia.. haha.. abit paiseh la but warm up at the back le.. haha.. aniwae, really nice to see her after like i tink since eve's bdae in 2005 i think.
tomolo's mondae.. shit.. i have rommel's mouth revolving in my head.. he's gonna bite me again.. damn.. wed... come faster.. i can't take it animore.
