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hey everyone, it's been 5 months since i last blogged.. sorry for the delay.. i kinda lazy to update the blog.. anyway, i'm fine.. just rushing assignments, study for tests and exams and the cycle just goes on and on.. nothing much actually goes in my life. =(

i actually feel like blogging todae. i knew this person at the start of this year. i also dun really know what happen, just keep talking to her for the past 1 month plus or so and grew kinda close together.

she's kinda special in her thinking.. maybe protective. i told her as much abt myself.. good and the bad ones.. but, she make me realise it is not really gd to tell someone abt the ugly side of yourself. i thought before, it's always gd to come clean abt urself. i told myself that everything that happen in the past is a lesson to me and i learnt from it. i know i did really bad stuff in the past and i dun wanna do it anymore.. let's just say i grew up from it.. but now, sometimes i dun really know the things i'm doing, whether it's the right thing i should do or not.. to me, i'm a person who always do things when i feel it is the thing to do.. sometimes it's not the right thing to do or should i say i'm selfish at times.. =(

i try to understand her, try to do what she wan me to do because i wan things to stay positive btw us but it always seems not the right thing to do. from a clear view of what i wanted, i become more confuse as it goes. when she told me after talking to me, she has to get back to her life, i feel really sad as i'm still outside of her life.. i really dunno what to do. i want to stay close but it's not the choice of mine to make.

i'm kinda tired.. but i dun really wanna give up. that's the only thing i felt.
i want to see her, spend time with her but i can't do it yet.
i'm really clueless.
=(

nicholas